Well, I finally got a new doctor. First appointment seemed to go well. He is a psychiatrist, so he will be able to hopefully change my current meds. I have been on Wellburtrin for about 2+ years. Not only does it not help, I am starting to have more and more of the side effects. Apparently it does nasty stuff to the body if one takes high doses over time, and quiting it at once is not recommended. I am also going to see a new therapist, at least for the next couple of months. I met her briefly at my appointment. She suggested I still keep my journal going...what little of do of it. I see her next Thursday. For the first time in a long time, I am daring to hope for something more then surviving a day at a time.